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Austen Freeze updated his status.

Apr 1, 2021, 10:42 PM·

I’ve had the excitement and exhilaration and optimism drained from me in the last few weeks and months particularly. Some or most of you may not agree, but I’ve made it through the entirety of this year feeling level-headed and productive. I’ve spent my time trying to learn, and teach, and converse, and create, and address issues. I don’t know. I’ve really tried my best honestly to like maintain and develop these relationships with you guys through this cartoon we've been living in. I’ve gone through a lot of phases. But. I’m just very… defeated. Drained. Aren’t we all? But… I’ve become so… defensive. I’ve been met with so much… silence. And It’s turned into ridicule. And now it’s at a point where literally my entire public perception is so distorted and so… I don’t know. I’m not wrong though. I’m not the one coming up with the information. It’s overwhelming, and we’re all tired, and all of that stuff. But none of you have any faith in my character or intelligence or something anymore. So many of you I’ve known for so long, and I’m just… sad. And I don’t think like continuing to interact with you guys is healthy or productive. I’m pissing people off left and right, I’m getting pissed off left and right… and literally. Nobody is… interested. You guys really think I’m crazy. And you’re making it clear. And all I’m doing is sharing information. And I’m not wrong. And so many of you think that I’m something that I’m not, and it’s turned me into something I’m not, and that’s not even what you I am at the same time. I honestly just feel so disconnected from all of you. And that’s just not been intentions at all. I really, truthfully, see no like… point in continuing using this app or like trying to connect with a lot you. Some of you I never thought I’d say that about. I just feel very dull about the future right now. This isn’t for attention and I’m threating self harm or anything. This is the last time a lot of you will hear from though to be honest. And I’m not crazy.

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